Found: "Don't Carpe Diem"

As we were making preparations to bring Tyson home, I was warned by quite a few moms that having three kids is hard. Exponentially harder than two kids. Different women cited different reasons, but it seemed to be a common theme. Now that I've been a mom to three little kids for a month-and-a-half and we're past a lot of the big adjustment-related issues, I will concur with those moms. I can't point out a specific reason, though. I've just noticed over the past couple of weeks that there are more evenings now that I think to myself, "how is it not bedtime yet?!" There are fewer evenings where I look back on the day and think, "I was a good Mom today," or even, "today was a great day!" More often than not, I feel like I'm just surviving motherhood. And who knows? Maybe my kids feel like they're just surviving me.

Please don't misunderstand. I am not complaining. I love being a stay-at-home-mom and I love my kids. I wouldn't trade my life for anything. But it is really hard. Since motherhood is stretching and molding me into a stronger, better, (and hopefully more patient) woman, I guess it's understandable that I am experiencing some growing pains along the way.

So this blog post I just read tonight really hit home. Mamastery: Don't Carpe Diem. It describes so well how I'm feeling about motherhood lately. "Clearly, Carpe Diem doesn't work for me. I can't even carpe fifteen minutes in a row, so a whole diem is out of the question." But the second half of the post really helped me put things into perspective. "And at the end of the day, I don't remember exactly what my kairos moments were, but I remember I had them. And that makes the pain of the daily parenting climb worth it."